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I'm sorry you guys have to hear this but I have to rant somewhere and I'm at fucking work.  This is a travesty of such epic proportions that I have to bitch about it.

Alright, I read today they are remaking Oldboy.  The Americans are remaking Oldboy, that doesn't sound so bad if you haven't seen the movie.  Its a brutal disturbing movie.  However, it could be done ok.  Americans do make some disturbing and brutal movies.  So, yes its possible but I can't say it will have that Korean bizarre flair.  There was some hope of a good movie until I saw who was directing and then starring in it.  Stephen Spielberg will be directing Will Smith in the movie.  Will fucking Smith will be starring in Oldboy.  That's utter idiocy.  I mean what were they thinking and then they have Stephen directing.  I mean come on man.  The main character kills people with a Hammer, pulls this guys teeth out with the back end of that same hammer, cuts out his own tongue with scissors, eats a live squid (no joke) and sleeps with his daughter.  I want you tell me honesty if you can see Will Smith doing that and Stephen directing him to do it.

Then they are remaking the Host too.  Will the horror ever end?

 I'm going to post today because I actually think I have something to say this time.  Recently, I've just really had nothing to talk about on here.  I read the journal entries though and make comments.  I had a nice surprise last thursday.  Signed up for a Wii Tennis Tournament early that day and we had the tournament at 5pm.  It ended up being a doubles match where you were teamed up with a stranger.  I ended up with a muslim from Afghanistan.  He had never played the game before but by the third game he was a pro.  We totally destroyed them and as a prize won a Ipod Nano!  Funny thing was, I didn't realize till afterwards that I had meet him before.  He came into my History 150 classes to give a talk about Islam.  It was pretty good and I had stayed afterwards to talk.  We may end up hanging out.  Also, the day before on Wednesday, I went to a Mexico presentation for extra credit.  Meet up with one of my fellow National Defense Policy classmates.  She was there for another class, she is also in my project group.  She the sportsie, intellectual type.  Pretty cute too.  We talked for a bit.  Then the speaker, Elias spoke for a while.  Near the end during the question and answer part a Russian girl and her Pakistani friend started asking questions.  After a few questions I started to get excited because they started talking about things that I really like to discuss.  Social issues, starting a cause to fix things, sort of revolutionary ideas, some big intellectual questions and these are things I loved to talk about so many years ago.  I don't know how many of you knew this but I used to have some extreme revolutionary ideals way back in middle school.  Back around the time when Communism really called out to me.  Fighting for the poor and working class.  Anyways, so I just had to talk with them afterwards.  I went on over and starting conversing.  I'd say that Natalie is a pretty interesting person.  We talked about world issues and some leaders.  I was talking about stuff that had been collecting cobwebs in my head.  Some stuff that I only talk to my mom about.  She's really where I got most of my ways from.  My mom is weird and I love her.  The only real person that I really love giving gifts.  To get back on track, we talked and I got to speak to the Pakistani whose name I forgot and her other Russian friend who was a business major.  Really, I haven't been able to discuss philosophical ideas like that in a while.  It was good and ended up adding her on Facebook.  I really hope I meet more interesting people like that here.  I'm so sick of meeting ordinary people (White people).

Other news, I received my award certificate for making the Dean's List last Saturday then lost it...  I dropped it and then came back and it was gone.  Luckily some one turned it in at the Science building so I picked it up today after school.  I also received a cardinal pin that says Dean's list, aren't I special.  Ugh, I hope I make the list again because I've been having troubles keeping my grades up this semester.  I procrastinate way to damn much.  I'm going to have to kick it into high gear!  On Sunday I was inducted into the Golden Key Society, which was cool.  I'm proud of myself for making it into the top 15% of the class, however I might not remain there come this semester...  I got an a award certificate from them too and talked with a few people there.  Had some awesome punch and this time didn't forget my award there.

Also spent most the weekend working on my costume.  I've got it pretty much done.  Got all the straps made and worked out right.  Made a holster and workable backpack set up and all I have left is the superscope.  Once that is set up, I'm going to put everything on and see what it looks like.  I really like the job I did on the straps.  It's similar to a parachute set up and I'd say looks pretty snazzy.  Yep, I love to saw and make things.  Makes me feel super productive even thought I didn't do any homework or study for my test today.  I was able to study this morning so I hope I did good.  I believe I got the essays done well.  Some better than others.

I plan on working on compaigning for the democrats tomorrow.  Been gone for a while on that front do to time constraints.  I've been going to NASA, which is the Native American Association.  That's been fun being able to meet up with more Natives and interacting with interesting people.  I also am the Vice-president of the German club and we are supposed to have a part come this thursday.  I'm going to try and be as helpful as possible and get involved with that.  I am also in the Alpha Mu Gamma language association.  We did a bake and book sale and raised 175$ to go for Harvestfest this November.  Its a multicultural event where you get to meet people and eat food from other countries.  I may be doing the polka to represent the German Club.  I gotsta represent my  hood.

Well, that's pretty much it.  I'm, thirsty

Going to California tomorrow.  I'll be there for 12 days, so I'll be getting back on the 22nd.  Visiting my Grandma.  It should be some fun.

It's about time I posted again.  It's been such a long time, but I really can't find a reason to post most days.  However, today is different.  I figured, since I really haven't said it on a general forum before, I'd announce that I will be moving in two days.  Yep, on May the 7th, a Wednesday I might add, I will be packing up my things and moving out of good ole' Vincennes.  I will be moving up to Muncie to go to Ball State to get a Bachelors in Political Science.  I'll be leaving around midday so most won't be able to see me off.  However, I am throwing Mikey a Birthday Party Tomorrow at the Wabash Trails at 6pm.  All those willing to go or not not willing to go should fucking go anyway.  It will be his Birthday Party and my farewell gesture.  I was hoping some others would throw the party but what evah.  I'm good at throwing parties anyway and coming up with great party ideas and wrapping gifts.  I actually haven't thrown a party in a long time and it was kind of last second so it isn't as good as it could have been.

I got the power glove in yesterday and it is completely amazing.  Out of everything it is the most amazing thing I've bought for my costume.  Playing Super Mario Bros is the so damn hard now.  Mikey and me haven't even gotten past level 2.  However, it makes you look completely badass while playing games now.  Everyone needs to have this glove.

I am not in a good mood.  So I'm going to express it in my writing.

Man do I hate people.  They just disgust me.  I go to class at VU and I realize just how horrible people can be.  They make me sick just seeing all these horrible ugly people.  Yeah, I'm shallow deal with it.  I also have a superiority complex too.  I'll admit it, I'm not ashamed of it.  It's not good by any means but once see how people are you would have the same problem as I have.  I have to ignore people and block others from my vision because I'd be totally angry and disgusted every hour that I'm out around people.  VU is one of the worst places to be actually mostly every where people gather.  I shouldn't be around people.  I think I should just leave society to go off and live in isolation.

I'd figure I'd also confirm some other news.  I'm planning on switching up to Ball State and living in Muncie next semester.  I need to and I want to leave this hell whole.  This Black Hole of a town that feeds on your life essence.  Then from there I'm going to move out of state.  I know I am moving out west but I don't know just where at right now or maybe I'll move out of the country maybe live in Europe for a while.  Probably to somewhere around Germany.  I can't wait to move.  I'm going to miss the people I'm going to leave behind but I just can't stand it here any longer.

I'm going to change myself, I've already started down the path to self betterment.

Well, it's that time again to update my journal.  I got severely depressed Saturday night and it finally made me decided something.  It's time to move on and leave this town.  I'm going to try and transfer up to Ball State this semester if there is still time.  Too many bad memories that I'm just tired of reliving.  I would just rather not even come into contact or even here certain people's names.  I don't drop grudges well or forget wrongs that have been dealt my way.  You can be the nicest guy possible but it seems all you get is shit.

Nice guys finish last.

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Everyone remember the date November 11, 2007. Something absolutely amazing happens on that legendary date. Something so outrageously amazing that only few can comprehend while others will be left completely stupefied. Now you must be wondering what could be so absolutely amazing that I'd actually spend time to write in my journal? But let me tell you, it is probably one of the single greatest moments in history. Only such a wondrous event happens once a millennium. It is an event of such great reverence that it is as if Jesus walked the Earth again. An event of such great importance it will leave you tingling in awe. A grand spectacle so monumental that the Earth will shake with tremendous force that it will probably kill MILLIONS, leaving others horribly, horribly disfigured. Only this single one event could cause such magnificent trauma. Only this single one event could cause civilization to crumble like time crumbles mountains. Only this could enthrall human race without breaking a sweat. However, those who partake in this single world defining event will be alleviated of their excruciating torments. So, I warn you: not, if you wish to live, to miss...

My cell is no longer on, so if you want to get a hold of me call my house.  895-0138

Today has been long in the waiting.  I have a achieved victory on the same level as my epic battle to beat Contra.  I have, today, conquered, Zombie Ate My Neighbors!  Yes, I have successfully beaten all 48 levels without once cheating.  I stood up to the challenge and defeated Dr Tongue and the invading aliens and ants.  I battled the football players in the gridiron.  I scoffed at Dracula, banished the werewolves and disassembled Frankenstein.  No chainsaw men or crazy dolls could withstand my power.  I won at long last as Adam, Mikey and Dan watched.  It was pretty fun killing the undead. 

I don't think I have felt the way I do now in a long time.  I almost forgot how it felt.  It feels good, I feel alive again.  Not like a pebble being thrown into a wide river, but like some giant boulder a mountain giant tossed into a stream just cause he could it and he was angry at his wife because she wouldn't make him dinner because she was tired of feeling under appreciated.  Yeah....  That is how I feel.  Like I jammed up some creak and made a vast reservoir of water.  Most if any will be following my logic by now, but I am and that is really what matters.  That I feel good with myself right now.  I mean look, I am actually, well I actually updated my journal with a real entry.  That hasn't happened in such a long time.  That's got to tell you something.  Life may not be great but at least I feel good for the time being, but I believe the feeling is here to stay.  There is a new friend I meet from college and she is finally back from Texas and I think she contributed to how I feel now.  I think that combined with the trip to Muncie did me some good finally.  My trips to Muncie may not be so action packed but they do help me.  Usually, better when I go myself.  It's a good get away and the twins are pretty good people.  I really like them.  Some of the best friends I have.  I think I'll be good now.  Better than I have been in while.  It feels good to feel good.

    On a side note I think I'll go into my social life matters.  Mikey is his usual funny and now quite racist self.  He sounds like me my senior year of High School.  Dissing the white man at every corner.  Finding the stereotypical qualities they have.  I began to get quite vocal about the whiteness my senior year, sort of like how Mikey is now.  It's quite funny.  It sure makes me chuckle.  I remember getting home from school and exclaiming, "White People!" or, "GOD!  White People!"  to my mom who usually said, "I know."  Let me get back on track.  I enjoy hanging around Mikey, he usually has some funny story to tell me about what happen, happened to him or what he did at school.  However, such stories will be less frequent since now he no longer attends High School.  He will be graduating this Friday in fact.  Yesterday was his last day. 
    Dan has been quite the recluse as of late.  He seems only to leave his house for work and the scant times he comes to hangout.  He likes it that way though.  Dan can also be quite the funny one, albeit he can get annoying from time to time.  What I mean by that is more annoying than he usually is which is a trick in the half, let me tell you.  He was able to watch the season finale of Lost.  Boo hoo for me.  I haven't been able to watch Lost since we switched to Satellite.  That sucks!  Dan seems to be doing alright though, but I think he has been doing some thinking lately on lifely matters though.  Just seems to me he has been doing some thinking below the surface.  He can be pretty enlightened sometimes though.  Speaking on that subject, Mikey invertedly helped me when he was talking about a touchy subject one day on WoW.  It made me have a realization that helped me with a problem I had been having. 
    Haven't seen much of Damion lately.  I really don't know he has been doing lately.  I don't mean to not hangout with him, but I can get in quite the doldrum when I do.  I don't really know why.  I have a few ideas though.  I think I get in a doldrum because hanging out with him brings me back to the bad things that have happened.  It's not really the memories that get me, its more like a subconscious effect.  Makes me clam up and not speak or talk.  Not an on purpose sort of thing mind you, but a subconscious thing.  It is worsened when we start to hangout with other people.  It usually is pretty fine and fun with just us two, but when other people come around he changes.  Then it isn't fun anymore.  Also, he constant lying to me makes me not trust him.  I like to be able to trust my friends and I can't with him.  There are a bunch of factors that keep me not wanting to hangout so much anymore.  A lot has to do with my laziness, if someone doesn't call me I usually do call anyone.  I would go on with listing all my closest of friends, but it would just drag on for to long.  I am getting sick of typing so I think I will just rap it up quicker.

    I didn't get to mention this before when I was up in Muncie.  I'm sorry Elsa for seeming so much like I didn't care, but sometime it is just hard for me to talk.  To bring what I want to say out.  So, I will say it here.  I do feel real bad for you because what Joe did to you.  He is big prick.  He did one of the dickish moves that disgusts me about men.  He hurt you and you are one of the few people who don't deserve to be hurt.  You are special, one of best girls I know.  Has Julie killed Joe yet?  I remember that she was pretty furious.  I would not like to make her angry.  Kristin, I also meant to say something to you that I never got around to saying.  I am sorry for that one trip that ended with a terrible night.  I didn't mean to get so carried away.  I hope I didn't say or do anything that was too bad.  I know I brought myself in that condition to you and I appreciate you wanting to help me.  I wasn't too good of a friend around that time.  Things won't ever get that bad again and that is a promise.  Also, I am sorry that you are always sick.  Things like that shouldn't happen to you either.  You and Elsa deserve to be happy and live good lives.  I am an optimistic, so I believe things will work out in the end.  Oh, by the way, I have Pharengitis.  I think that is one of the illnesses that you listed, but I am not quite sure.  I meant to have this updated last night, but for some reason it wouldn't post so I think I'll do it now.  There were some other things I want to say but I'll leave them for a different post.  They would be out of context now anyway.  So, bye for now.